Excuse me, too

So I read an article (http://www.examiner.com/article/dad-s-reply-to-school-on-kids-absence-is-best-response-ever) about a father's insight with regards to the absence of his kids in class. I am part of those kids who don't get to be excused for a family trip, special gathering, or just for the sake of going out with my family. I am one of those who would /ab/normally choose going to SCHOOL over anything else. I grew up seeing these universities and colleges as my primary source of learning and being absent would mean MISSING A LOT from the day's lessons. I never knew what it was like to be told, "Child, forget about school for a day or two. We are going somewhere else and you will love it there!" So what is my normal reaction when people say that they have been absent because they went here and they have seen blah blah blah? I feel bad for them because they missed school and they have parents who think that these trips are even more valuable than what they are paying for in school...

Until now.

I realize that I actually envy these people for being able to experience the world as young as they are. That they are rich, financially and experience-wise. That I am now feeling all this wanderlust in my blood because I never get to explore the world and I am already 22. Some people my age are already going to different places, investing on experiences that makes them who they are.

And here I am. Lost? Confused? Nah. Mostly stuck at where I am -- accepting the fact that not getting all these things today doesn't mean that I can no longer make these things happen. Maybe what I need are still not with me right now: money, timing, and the right shoes to take me there.

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Can I Explore the World with You?

Warning: this is a drama of an only child

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I am not really comfortable talking about this with other people, but I just wanna speak this one out. Just now. 

I am an only child and I never really did grew up getting everything I want. Though admittedly, my parents are not really that strict when it comes to house rules. I am not spoiled, or at least I think I'm not. I don't consider myself as one of those rich kids who always tend to get what they want. 

But I am someone who have always wanted a lot of things. I have that tendency of feeling really disappointed when I don't get what my parents had promised me (though I was the one who actually forced them to make that promise :/). But I've learned to deal with that. I've learned to somehow manage that attitude I have. But there are really these times wherein I could no longer handle myself...

Here's my problem... I have always wanted to explore the world, to go to different places, to experience a lot of things. And I always long to achieve those with my parents. I am jealous of those people whose parents are the ones initiating going to various places for vacation, etc. I understand... We don't really have a budget for such extra-activities. But I can't help feeling like..... "Can't I experience going somewhere with you even just once every 2 years?" 

I go out with my friends, with my boyfriend, with my classmates. We go to the malls (where you won't even want to go), watch movies, shop for things, go out of town (well, for field trips), sleep over at someone's house, drink 'til we're drunk, etc. But you know what? Even though I'm happy with their company, I am still wishing that we could also have those types of get-together. Well it will not completely be the same, of course. It will be a different one. But the thing is, I am with you and we're doing the things I've always dreamed of doing with you...

Maybe I am really being childish. Maybe I'm being irrational. But this is what I've always kept with me ever since. This doesn't mean that I love them less, it's just that, there are certain things that my heart is longing for. I'll always be thankful for everything they've given me. And I'll always love them no matter what. I'm just letting this out. I'm just really feeling bad...

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