Saturday, November 29, 2014

/Pride/ Games

"Thank you for not letting me know early,
For keeping me waiting for hours."

"Alright, you're welcome."

He's mad and exhausted
She's tired and hurt;
He's had a bad day
She's been on her worst week, yet;

He's clueless on how she feels
She's done taking in all the negatives;
And now they won't talk for days
For some petty 'argument'

I am telling a story of a boy who loves girl,
And a girl who does love him back;
But he goes on with his life, and so does she
Wondering when they'll get each other back...

I just wanted an apology
I just hoped he let me know early

I need to cool down...
*shuts the world off her*

Saturday, November 01, 2014


One of the great things that I've learned from listening to Taylor's songs is to never be afraid of change. Face it. Embrace it. Don't run away from it. Her fearless aura never failed to amaze me. Her desire to become someone who's even better each day inspires me to become a different version of myself as well. I don't know how she does it, but man, she does it well.

I am 21 and I make decisions carefully, but sometimes, carelessly. I let my emotions sink in and drown myself into whatever ocean of emotions that is. But that is normal. The thing is, I do not allow myself to continuously run out of air to breathe. I get out of the ocean, breathe deeply, and move on. "This is a new day, and I am becoming someone new. Bitches, I am making the most out of what I have now. You can never pull me down."

As a graduating Accountancy student, this academic year serves as my make or break avenue. Fail a major subject, you are at the verge of not being able to graduate on time. (Not that graduating on time is the thing that matters most, CPA Board Exam does; but I am an irregular student, a transferee from another school... and it would suck to lose another year or another semester for one mistake that I could have had avoided since Day 1.) Give up at the middle of your journey, and you'll never get to where you want to be. So I continue to fight, to dream, and to achieve. I have failed a thousand times; but in those failures, I made sure that I fought hard and I learn from them. I pick the pieces of myself back together. I am someone new again.

There had been a lot of changes that I welcomed, and a lot of changes that I repulsed. Those decisions I made in between are the ones that forever changed me. Out of all the chances I've got, and the choices I've made, I always make sure that I would still stand to whatever I believe in. That I wouldn't just be one of those people going with the flow. That I wouldn't just be a part of the crowd. I make sure that I only compete with myself, and with that, I am becoming someone even better than who I was before.

This post is about changes. This post is about an aspiring Certified Public Accountant who is currently afraid about what will happen next to her future; yet fearlessly facing the unknowns ahead of her. This post is about being a new and better version of one's self each day. This post is about not letting other people's opinion of you let you down. This post is about new journeys and new adversities in life. This post is about a 21-year-old girl listening to Taylor Swift's songs to brighten up her day. This post is to never being afraid again.

Monday, October 20, 2014


That night was indeed one the best nights I've ever had. My fan girl soul was all over me and I couldn't explain how and what I felt during those times (even my boyfriend would attest to that.) 

Kinikilig pa rin ako hanggang ngayon, ilang araw na ang nakalipas pero may #HappyTogetherHangover pa rin ako. :((

I'm looking forward to watch more of Kean's and Kean&Eunice's concerts in the future!!! 

Thursday, September 18, 2014

What She Wants

I wanna know the “what will be,”
‘cause I am tired of the “what is”;
I wanna see the best of me
I could no longer live like this

I wanna know the future “us”
‘cause I’d still love to see you there;
I wanna let go of the bitter past,
The things that I could no longer bear

Sick of the present,
Tired of what had been;
Scared of what will happen,
Of what I have not yet seen —

Ironic, isn’t it?
To want what you fear;
To be someone different,
To be anywhere else, but here.

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Friday, July 11, 2014


I'm no longer on track
Where am I now?
Have I been wasting
         the time that I've always had?

"This time will be different,"
I keep on saying myself.
But where am I going?
           Have I lost my mind as well?

Who am I now?
Do I still know myself?
For the past three years
          I've always believed that "I can."

Take me away,
          drown me in despair.
Would it still matter?

I don't think so,
          I no longer care . . .

Euni Bree July 10, 2014 (around 2PM)

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Tuesday, March 04, 2014

Emotionally Exhausted

One moment everything seems so perfect and then everything feels like crap. I don't know where to place myself, where to stand, where to even look at things in order to understand them in a different perspective. It's just too tiring to deal with myself, to deal with people, to try to make them understand, or to even care. I just don't feel like I'm being valued just as much as I think I deserve to be. I don't think I'm being understood the way I needed people to understand me. I feel so lost, so helpless, so fragile. Why do I feel like I've been forcing myself to be someone so significant to others when in fact I'm really not? People will just keep on pushing you away without even exerting much effort. After all the things you've done to deal with their bullshit, they'd still be lost in how they'd be treating you back. I don't even think you're getting me. That you're paying much attention to know who I am, what I want, what I need. You're just there, and you're just simply there. Instead of trying to pull me closer, you push me away. Instead of trying to make me feel better, you simply distant yourself. You run away, you escape. You hate confrontations, you hate me whenever I'm trying to speak myself up. Maybe because I speak nonsense, I speak so shallow, I speak with so much emotions. Or maybe we're all just tired of everything.

I just don't know. I just don't understand. Why is it so difficult to handle too much things at one time? Last week has been a long, tough week. I made it then. I don't know if I could still make it now. 

Friday, February 07, 2014

11:54 - just because I couldn't think of anything better to type in here

I think I've been really selfish and that I've been putting all the blame on you when you have been so patient in dealing with me and my irrationality. I'm too fed up, I get too emotional, and I am blowing everything on you. I am sorry.

I think I've been pushing you away every time you try to reach out to me. I don't know what I am up to, I don't know why am I acting that way, but really, I don't really understand myself too.

I'm tired of all the drama but I always end up making one. I'm sick of all the nonsense arguments but it seems like I'm the only one initiating a fight. I understand that you got tired of me, that you gave up in trying to understand me and my selfish ways. I get tired of myself too, most of the time.

I'm sorry if I make you feel unappreciated, I'm sorry if I keep on acting like this. Maybe I just don't know how to handle myself the way you do. I'm sorry if I act too dependent sometimes, I'm sorry if I don't know what else to say. This baggage is just too heavy that I needed to do something to let it out.

Tuesday, February 04, 2014

You Motivate Me.

You push me to my limits, you make me want to prove something more. I think that's something that I'd be forever thankful for about you. You just had that "something" that helps me get focused on achieving my long term goals.

Friday, January 10, 2014