11:54 - just because I couldn't think of anything better to type in here

I think I've been really selfish and that I've been putting all the blame on you when you have been so patient in dealing with me and my irrationality. I'm too fed up, I get too emotional, and I am blowing everything on you. I am sorry.

I think I've been pushing you away every time you try to reach out to me. I don't know what I am up to, I don't know why am I acting that way, but really, I don't really understand myself too.

I'm tired of all the drama but I always end up making one. I'm sick of all the nonsense arguments but it seems like I'm the only one initiating a fight. I understand that you got tired of me, that you gave up in trying to understand me and my selfish ways. I get tired of myself too, most of the time.

I'm sorry if I make you feel unappreciated, I'm sorry if I keep on acting like this. Maybe I just don't know how to handle myself the way you do. I'm sorry if I act too dependent sometimes, I'm sorry if I don't know what else to say. This baggage is just too heavy that I needed to do something to let it out.