Saturday, December 19, 2009

mixed emotions.

oh yeaah. so i'd love to make things straight to the point here. haha.
lemme start then.

yesterday, we had our xmas party. haha. at it's super enjoy. lalo na ung mga gifts na narecv ko. i uber thank those people who gave me gifts, esp. those who've given me spongebob stuffs. grbe. super nkakatouch. :) then, that night, we had our paskuhan. it is really an almost perfect night, except the fact na hndi ako pnaygang tapucn ung event. nkakainis lng, kasi, that was my last paskuhan as a high school student @ ust. tapos, they wouldn't allow me to fully experience the paskuhan. super nkakadisappoint. at nkksama ng loob. and i couldn't deny the fact na hanggang ngayon, i'm feelng bad about it. REGRETS, panghhnayang, at pagkakairita.

now. i'm feeling quite weird again. i just can't get why people tend to be so sensitive and insensitive at times. i'm not feeling well, emotionally. and this bothers me a lot. why? because i'm fearing that i have the tendency to experience this "depressive disorder". but then again, i'm trying to calm myself down, and condition myself. i don't have to deal with everything, alone. i don't have to carry the burden on my own. i don't have to be the one suffering from the sentiments of other people. i have my own life too. and it just sucks to feel like some people tend to take your weak points for granted.

it sucks to realize that not all people could understand you; how you feel, how you think, and how you deal with things. they wouldn't even have the mind to think of placing themselves on your position to at least know how you really feel. they just think of themselves. and wouldn't care of how you are feeling, and what were your insights about things. life is indeed unfair.

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