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| "I keep myself busy. Time goes faster that way." |
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
Friday, July 11, 2014
Indifference
I'm no longer on track
Where am I now?
Have I been wasting
the time that I've always had?
"This time will be different,"
I keep on saying myself.
But where am I going?
Have I lost my mind as well?
Who am I now?
Do I still know myself?
For the past three years
I've always believed that "I can."
Take me away,
drown me in despair.
Would it still matter?
I don't think so,
I no longer care . . .
Euni Bree July 10, 2014 (around 2PM)
Where am I now?
Have I been wasting
the time that I've always had?
"This time will be different,"
I keep on saying myself.
But where am I going?
Have I lost my mind as well?
Who am I now?
Do I still know myself?
For the past three years
I've always believed that "I can."
Take me away,
drown me in despair.
Would it still matter?
I don't think so,
I no longer care . . .
Euni Bree July 10, 2014 (around 2PM)
Thursday, April 17, 2014
All for TSwift RED Tour tickets...
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| http://www.spinnr.ph:8012/ring/promo/Taylor-Swift-Promo.jpg |
So I bought a Smart sim, created an account on spinnr.ph, and joined the Spinnr Taylor Swift Red Promo...
pushing my luck on this one. Please let me win :(
Tuesday, March 04, 2014
Emotionally Exhausted
One moment everything seems so perfect and then everything feels like crap. I don't know where to place myself, where to stand, where to even look at things in order to understand them in a different perspective. It's just too tiring to deal with myself, to deal with people, to try to make them understand, or to even care. I just don't feel like I'm being valued just as much as I think I deserve to be. I don't think I'm being understood the way I needed people to understand me. I feel so lost, so helpless, so fragile. Why do I feel like I've been forcing myself to be someone so significant to others when in fact I'm really not? People will just keep on pushing you away without even exerting much effort. After all the things you've done to deal with their bullshit, they'd still be lost in how they'd be treating you back. I don't even think you're getting me. That you're paying much attention to know who I am, what I want, what I need. You're just there, and you're just simply there. Instead of trying to pull me closer, you push me away. Instead of trying to make me feel better, you simply distant yourself. You run away, you escape. You hate confrontations, you hate me whenever I'm trying to speak myself up. Maybe because I speak nonsense, I speak so shallow, I speak with so much emotions. Or maybe we're all just tired of everything.
I just don't know. I just don't understand. Why is it so difficult to handle too much things at one time? Last week has been a long, tough week. I made it then. I don't know if I could still make it now.
Friday, February 07, 2014
11:54 - just because I couldn't think of anything better to type in here
I think I've been really selfish and that I've been putting all the blame on you when you have been so patient in dealing with me and my irrationality. I'm too fed up, I get too emotional, and I am blowing everything on you. I am sorry.
I think I've been pushing you away every time you try to reach out to me. I don't know what I am up to, I don't know why am I acting that way, but really, I don't really understand myself too.
I'm tired of all the drama but I always end up making one. I'm sick of all the nonsense arguments but it seems like I'm the only one initiating a fight. I understand that you got tired of me, that you gave up in trying to understand me and my selfish ways. I get tired of myself too, most of the time.
I'm sorry if I make you feel unappreciated, I'm sorry if I keep on acting like this. Maybe I just don't know how to handle myself the way you do. I'm sorry if I act too dependent sometimes, I'm sorry if I don't know what else to say. This baggage is just too heavy that I needed to do something to let it out.
I think I've been pushing you away every time you try to reach out to me. I don't know what I am up to, I don't know why am I acting that way, but really, I don't really understand myself too.
I'm tired of all the drama but I always end up making one. I'm sick of all the nonsense arguments but it seems like I'm the only one initiating a fight. I understand that you got tired of me, that you gave up in trying to understand me and my selfish ways. I get tired of myself too, most of the time.
I'm sorry if I make you feel unappreciated, I'm sorry if I keep on acting like this. Maybe I just don't know how to handle myself the way you do. I'm sorry if I act too dependent sometimes, I'm sorry if I don't know what else to say. This baggage is just too heavy that I needed to do something to let it out.
Tuesday, February 04, 2014
You Motivate Me.
You push me to my limits, you make me want to prove something more. I think that's something that I'd be forever thankful for about you. You just had that "something" that helps me get focused on achieving my long term goals.
Friday, January 10, 2014
And so she's back
Focus baby, focus.
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
She's Nowhere to be Found
There's this girl that I used to know
We were once so close and insep'rable
But life's been cruel and things have changed...
Light as a feather, she's been blown away
The idea of her is the only thing that remained
But that isn't enough for her presence to be felt...
I wish I could bring her back, but I just couldn't
Because the path she's chosen is far from where I am
She's gone too far, and she's gone too soon
I tried to wait but I get tired too
I used to believe that it'll be easy
That she'll come back when she starts missing me
But what's happening now? Please tell me.
The girl that I used to know is no longer here
She wanted to be free so I let her be
Isn't that what real love is?
Sunday, September 29, 2013
You're an A-hole.
You make me feel sick.
& I am tired of dealing with your bullshit.
& I am tired of dealing with your bullshit.